Sunday, February 22, 2009

my new possession

check this out....after whole week's of surveying...i finally got my prize as promised...hehee..it costs me 308 MYR though...but i seriously feel great..... who know this could make me a famous bowler 5 years from now?

hahahah....jus kidding...bowling is only a pass-time for me...not playing under stress but instead, playing to release tension.....guess it's another part of my life that reli intrigues me to improve....both physically and emotionally....something that i can at least do it alone....of cos if there is someone there to accompany me, it would be better... :P

couldn't manage to snap the photo for my new possession..probably tomorrow. :P

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

i made it....at last...

managed to leave office around 9pm...had a slow drive while talking to my mum over the phone...and i stopped at my usual destination...the summit.. thought i would stopped after 3 games but i ended up with 6 games in a row. tired though but it's really helping me to relax and release. what was that? yes, you're right...it's bowling, again..hahaa....

din reli score well until the very last game, i shot up to 163 points, which was far beyond my normal score....yes, i made it....and the reward will be appear here soon...stay tuned...hahaha...

guess wat, i never thought that bowling could be such an important part in my daily life. not until i realized it is something that i can do it alone. i enjoyed the moments of letting go the ball onto the lane...it seems so easy yet some difficult to control, just like our life--> simple yet complicated... :)

this might be one important stage of my life, in which i am switching myself into another level of human being....and to build up my passion towards my career.... it's hard though, i spend about 15hours almost everyday to deal with my current job, no doubt i dun like this job, but yet, at current uncertain scenario out there, i reli have to stay focus and perform in my current job. and one day, i will, i know i will, leave this job proudly with no regrets...hahaha...

well, it seems reli hard when no one is standing next to me, giving all those cares and supports that i need most..... :( what to do? have to face it, have to deal with it and have to tolerate it, no matter i like it anot...

to ppl that spend time to read my stories...i would like to thank you for your time. good luck for you guys in everything that u are doing and going to do....

p/s: love yourselves...love those who love you.. :)

Cheers....

Monday, February 16, 2009

lepak

Another plain Sunday...did nothing except hanging out with new friend...after sending the fella to work i decided to lepak at RnR for some fresh air....it's was so peaceful...and i kinda like that kinda feeling of hanging out alone.... before this i was thinking that being alone never work but look at myself right now? i am just fine even i am alone...bowling, meals and hangout...doesn't reli mean that i need to have someone to be there for me....in fact...doing all these alone give me more chances to get to know new ppl....so ppl i am telling u...so what if i am a lone ranger....i dun even care....it's my life...

time's up for my weekend.... sleep and work...Monday..i m coming...

Candid just now at RnR

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Apa barang...? go to hell...

never thought i will meet ppl more emo than me....he pissed me off.....planned to soak my body n head inside the hot pool at thiz lonely valentine day (as usual)... but ended up, someone successfully pissed me off and pulled myself out from the trip....

looks like i am fated to be alone at home and do nothing for this very special but very boring nite...huhuh....perhaps i need to get some fresh air at my favorite place tonite...

yeah,,guess that's plan....let me go out now..hahah..c ya.... :P

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Tired

super tired and down today...realized one of the project passed over to me is with incomplete story....by right it should take me couple weeks to complete that but now, i need to restart afresh... key learning for myself is, i was not really getting into the details. bit down for that...but at least i learned a lesson. and will try to be better.

in the situation that feeling down...i stepped into the bowling court for 3 games. actually asked for 2 but the cashier insisted to let me have 3, as their package for weekdays' nites i believed. good to release tension but yet, i am still at a distance from my target score to get myself a bowl. huhuh...

wednesday, another day with pack of activities and tasks to be completed. i am really trying hard to look at all these from a different perspective now, just a little bit more time, i will be stronger and better than i am, right now.....like UltraMan.. ^_^

wish me luck guys...nite nite...

Asked Jack to trim my hair for easier styling
(P/S: this is not the final version, like Jack said, be patient to wait for another month..hehehe)

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Goodnite

Monday's over....hahaa....

trying my best to love my current job....reli trying hard right now...hahaha....

got some unexpected phone calls tonite...cant imagined i was not forgotten...Jo, i miss u...hahaha...

goodnite guys...

Monday, February 9, 2009

if you dun care, dun pretend and dun ask...

well..that's it, another weekend passed. with Pink Panther watched and few games of bowling. tried out some nice food in Jusco...which at least, made me feel good for a few minutes. hahaa...

life of mine is getting on...though i am alone. planned to find jack for a haircut today but when i called up lady boss she told me that they have closed up for tonite. too bad...will be goin for that tmr after work.

sometimes i wonder, why everytime when i am about to forget...the person will always reappear in my life...i dun wish to think back and jus wish to move on. meeting up new ppl... having better and more fun in my life. is it too much that i am actually asking for? when i do need someone there for me to hang on....no the person never be there....and i was left all alone..kinda helpless...and hopeless.. and when i finally learnt and adapted the way to be alone...yes..the person trying to let me feel that yes..he is there to care....but i know...my existence was meant nothing to him... so let me disappear....forever.....and let my love to you fade away....as time goes on....pls...if you dun care, dun pretend to and dun ask.....cos it hurts, even much more that u can imagine....

Saturday, February 7, 2009

what's wrong with me?

friday supposed to be a happy day for me....adding that this friday was my replacement holiday for Thaipusam....however....it wasn't reli that happy...huhuu...

been asking myself the same question over and over again, how to grow love n passion onto my curent job....but yet..i still do not have any answer....realized that i have not been performing in my best status this couple few months...as i kept on telling myself that i hate this job.....sigh~~wish to change a new job but looking at current economy status..it's not a right thing to do....

went for my car service.spend 200bucks for everything....nw it's much comfortable to speed my car...guess this is the only thing that made me feel great all these while..hahaa....

what am i goin to do today?i dunno...seriously...

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

another working day


Quite tired today...reached office around 7am and begun to check my inbox...cool....having 200 over emails to be read....and new mails are coming in non-stop..hahaha...here it go, another busy working day begun....meetings...paperwork...presentation...linewalk....call.....when i realized it's time to go home, again, it's 9pm....driving all alone home....suddenly felt so lonely.....took a quick bath, out for dinner together with Yob. Luckily i still have some fren to hang out together with.. hahaha...not so pathetic anyway.....huhu

and yeah, that's it....time to sleep and start another working day at 7am tmr.....i promise myself, to escape earlier from my workplace tmr...and go for 2 games of bowling....hahaha.....

nite nite guys....


Juz-B, my favourite band, once...

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Puspa ST12

kau gadisku yang cantik
coba lihat aku disini
disini ada aku yang cinta padamu

kau gadisku yang manis
coba lihat aku disini
disini ada aku yang sayang padamu

walau kutahu bahwa dirimu
sudah ada yang punya
namun kan kutunggu sampai kau mau


jangan jangan kau menolak cintaku
jangan jangan kau ragukan hatiku

ku kan selalu setia menunggu
untuk jadi pacarmu

jangan jangan kau tak kenal cintaku
jangan jangan kau hiraukan pacarmu
putuskanlah saja pacarmu
lalu bilang i love you padaku

walau kutahu bahwa dirimu
sudah ada yang punya
namun kan kutunggu sampai kau mau

Back to Basic - Simple Simpler Simplest

Nash Coffee @ Nash Donuts & Bakery


well...it's finally the 9th day of CNY... Most chinese were busy with "Bai Ti Gong" last nite while i was driving down to SP to meet up some old frens. Life has been tough recently when i eventually "removed" 2 of the most important persons from my life.... the one that i loved so much and the one that i trusted so much. now, back to basic, i finally got them out from my life, which i should have done this long time ago. some must be asking WHY? if they are important, then why removed them from my life? well, it's easy and best described with one word, BETRAYAL. the next question will be "HOW"... and i chose not to answer this one for my own reason.

now, life gets simpler, at least i think so...i do what i like to do, movies, karaoke,bowling and shopping....the only difference is that, i am alone right now. eagerly hoping to meet and get to know new gang and new frens...leaving all those betrayal behind. yes, it's not easy to start afresh but i guess that's the only thing and the best to do, in order to avoid more hurt feelings and bad days.

let's move forward, with a new perspective.....learn from the past, from the lessons i got with a terrible price paid. Guys, pray for me.... and i will pray for you guys too...

KEEP SMILING and SMOOTH SAILING for Year 2009.