Thursday, October 22, 2009

Lagu untuk A

walaupun dh ambik keputusan untuk aku dgn A masih ade berhubung skali skala..bila aku x tahan rindu..aku msg dia...dan dia jugak..kadang2...mms gambar dia kt aku confused...smpai bile kita nk terus macam ni..?

bila aku mulakan perbincangan pasal hubungan antara aku dgn dia...mmg x de kesudahan... :(

aku sygkan dia....dan aku tau...dia pernah sygkan aku malangnya, jodoh x de... masih ingat lagi, msg last A antar kt aku, suruh aku dgr lagu Harapan Fazli Zainal, dia x tau, dah sememangnya lagu ni aku selalu dgr..dan mgkn dia dh lupa, dia pernah nyanyi lagu ni gak waktu kami pergi karok sekali.. :

kepada A, seandainya awak dpt baca Blog sy...xkira la skrg ke, minggu depan ke, setahun dprd skrg ke mgkn, 10tahun kemudian nk dedicate lagu ni kepada awak:

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Friday, October 16, 2009

Please do not waste your time....

Take note: Get to known your love ones and appreciate them before it to late.....

Daniel: I guess we are the left overs in this world.
Jasmine: I think so.. All of my friends have boyfriends & we are the only 2 personsleft in this world without any special someone in our lives.
Daniel: Yup! I don't know what to do.
Jasmine: I know! We'll play a game.
Daniel: What game?
Jasmine: I'll be your girlfriend for 30 days & you will be my boyfriend.
Daniel: That's a great plan in fact, I don't have anything to do for the following weeks..

DAY 1:They watched their first movie together & were both touched in the romantic film.

DAY 4:They went to the beach & had a picnic...... Daniel & Jasmine had their quality time together.

DAY 12:Daniel invited Jasmine to a circus and they went to a Horror House.. Jasmine was scaredand she tried to touch Daniel's hand but by accident she touched someone else's and they both laughed....

DAY 14:They saw a fortune teller down the road and asked for their future. The fortune teller said: "My darlings, please don't waste the time of your lives... spend your time together happily." Then tears flow from the teller's eyes.

DAY 20:Jasmine invited Daniel to go to the hill and they saw a meteor... Jasmine mumbled something .

DAY 28:They rode on a bus and because of the bumpy road, Jasmine gave her first kiss to Daniel by accident.

DAY 29:11:37 pm:Daniel & Jasmine were sitting in the park where they first decided to play this game ...

Daniel: I'm tired Jasmine... do you want any drinks? I'll buy you one.. I'll just go down the road..
Jasmine: Apple juice would be fine,thanks.
Daniel: Wait for me...

20 minutes later...... a stranger approched Jasmine.

Stranger: Are you a friend of Daniel?
Jasmine: Yes, why? What happened?
Stranger: A reckless drunken driver ran over Daniel & he is critical in the hospital.........

11:57pmThe doctor came out from the emergency room & handed out an apple juice & a letter to Jasmine.

Doctor: We found this in Daniel's pocket.

Jasmine read the letter which says: Jasmine, this past few days, I realized you are really a cute girl & I am falling for you... your cherished smile, your everything when we played this game.. & before this game ends, I would like you to be my girlfriend for the rest of my life. I love you, Jasmine......

Jasmine crumples the paper & shouted.."Daniel! I don't want you to die...I love you..... Remember that night we saw a meteor? I mumbled something.. I wished that we would be together forever & never end this game. Please don't leave me, Daniel... I love you, you cannot do this to me

Then the clock strikes 12 Daniel's heart stop pumping

THEN IT WAS THE 30th DAY......

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Always love your loved ones & show them how you feel before it's too late.. You will never know when they will be gone from your embrace.. If you were given a time to bestow petals of everlasting compassion & love to your love ones, today is the day. Love them while they are still here...

Monday, October 12, 2009

nice trip...

Party whole night....
hang out with lots of cute ppl....
movie in pavillion..

really enjoyed myself the last 2 days...

but there's always something that bothers me, i will name that "Post-Party Trauma" will never be matter if i spent 1 day or 2 days or even 10days with these kinda activities..hahaha......

i will miss u guys...hope we can hang out soon.. :)

Thursday, October 8, 2009

The End

sometimes i am thinking that i am cursed... guessed what? whenever i begin to feel that myself is being loved, something bad will surely happen, and grab away the little bit of love that i get to feel...

for so long, none of my relationship actually last longer than 1 year. in fact, the longest, was 1 year, with 3 months of cold war, 2 months of transition period when we were becoming less and less intimate....and now...this coming weekend, it is the person's wedding. tough huh?

for almost a year after the last break up, i wasn't really hoping for new relationship. several persons drew my attentions, but none worked out eventually. until this P came to my life. P is not from around here but working in Seremban. got to know P from a ex fren. ya ex fren, means now we are no longer fren.. :) something bad happened and something bad came out from his mouth, destroyed the frienship. not forgiveness, forever.... :(

P is not exactly my type, but the charisma attracts me. somehow, we are not fated to be together. from single to couple to single again, P never ever noticed my presence. i always think that there is a reason..and recently i found the culprit. anyway, now P is happy with his Loved one, and i am glad to see that. the hurt and pain are not that significant as P and me are 500km away from each other. Distance really plays a role here i guessed. :)

approximately 2 months ago, got to know A when i joined frens to Club. in fact, i rarely go to club ever since i stationed in Penang. the clubs here sucks though. :P. first impression of A was very common. and when getting to know A better, the attraction grew bigger. we started to text each other frequently...and once in a while we went out together, either only 2 of us or with a whole bunch of frens. until one fine day, A sent me a text message with the 3 words, simple yet magical...i realized that i am not exactly "tepuk sebelah tangan"..yes, it is sort of confession from A to me....we did not discuss further on that and mutual agreement was to let things go the way they want...and like i said, i am cursed, when i started to feel LOVE, bad things happened. yes it happened.

some f**king b*tch made up story about me and D having affair to A. until A came confronted me asking for clarification...even worse, D came asked if i have made up the story? cool right? i became the guilty one...out of nowhere, i was accused to be having affair with a fren of mine...thanks to the f**king b*tch..few days after that, A and i were still not in good term due to this. and now, there's nothing between A and me anymore....

A special note to the f**king b*tch: Thank you very much for the help. I guess you are happy to see others in miserable. months ago, you sabotaged when i try to get along with P. and now, you did that again. Congrats for the success... thinking of how much I helped you before this, this is what i got from you. this is pretty much a good lesson for me. i will be better eventually..and you will not be forgiven this time. i dun mind if you keep telling ppl around on how bad i am and how pity you are, in wise ppl's eyes, they know who is right and who is me you are just too pathetic, hopping around for different frens just for your own convenience....if this is the way you define frenship.. eventually frenship will judge you one day...just wait and see...

to P and A: what has happened cannot be changed and for whatever shit that put to me, i will not clarify further. i will move on with my life now, and will keep praying for you guys' happiness. eventually one day, you will know the truth.....

and this is the end of the charpter....

new change is coming....New Story...

wonder if my new baby brought me the change or just some coincidence here. For so long, i have been always wanted to leave my current job and pick up new stuffs. but i never have make it happen. so long, i am still stucked here doing all those things that i reli cannot passionate myself to do. finally, i got the chance to get a change. and i went for the interview. 2 weeks after that, i was informed, that i was selected to join the new team. YAHOOOOO.....i finally got one step closer to what i want to try now....cant wait for to start this new job. :)

wish me luck dude....