it's all about choices

it's the second day after my 24th birthday...life is getting on as usual..with a lot of meetings and work...

many things happened recently and before i could have realized, many things have changed....there's no time for me to feel down and sad. afterall, life still moving on....

life is really all about choices, we may not know what is coming up in the next minute, but we are able to decide, what we want to do. but unfortunately, we cant control how we feel.... :(

Lots of decision been made recently and i wonder if i will feel regret later on.... loves, frens, works, etc...

sometimes i reli feel tired with all these but there's no one there for me to hang on to.....things are even worse when i finally decide to end the relationship with someone that i reli love so much.... someone asked,"if love then why broke up?"...well, it's reli hard to answer though. we both realized it's better to be fren than couple in our case.this is why we came to this point of decision. at 1st i thought i am fine with that, but now then i realized, no i am not ok....i am totally empty right now..

with frens on the other hand, conflicts are attacking us....i wonder what i can do so that things could get better.....but again...once after another, we get hurt and hurt each others, intentional or unintentionally....esp. when admiring come in place, things get reli complicated. when frenship cannot be only frenship, this is where the problems and conflicts come in.....sometimes i reli hate myself for being like this. but again, it's beyond my control.....

if you guys happen to read my blog, would like apologize over here.....sorry guys....reli reli sorry....if possible...i reli wish things dun become like this.....it's far too "dramatic" for us.....but yet, life ain't easy.....guess what? i reli miss u guys alot..but i have to get myself away from you guys before things get worse than now....i reli dun wish to see we end up hating each others.....i dun expect u guys to forgive me....neither hope that u guys could understand my reason as for now....but one day....u will...at least i believe so....let time tells us what are all these about...